Woman Takes To YouTube To Talk About Sexual Abuse

NORTH TEXAS (CBSDFW.COM) – At first glance it may look like many of the other videos posted on YouTube, but it’s definitely not. A Fort Worth woman is using the video sharing website to go public about a painful incident in her past and now she’s facing harsh criticism from her own family because of it.

“We are doing this – it’s something that’s very important to me.  It’s about something that happened to me,” explained Mara Johnson.

Johnson isn’t hiding anymore. She’s talking about what happened to her when she was just a young girl.

An excerpt from the documentary shows her saying, “For years I was ashamed about it.”

A few weeks ago the 27-year-old used YouTube as the outlet to post her video.

Johnson was molested at12 years old and pregnant at 13. The father of her child was her cousin, Earnest Lawson, who last year was arrested and charged with aggravated sexual assault of a child.

“The abuse itself it’s painful,” said Johnson, “but the fact that I had a child and she is no longer with me and I don’t have that family time. I don’t get to spent birthdays with her…that was taken away from me.”

Johnson said she was forced to give her baby girl up for adoption.

To this day she says the decision is her biggest regret.

“I feel sorry for me then, but I can’t attach fully to everything I went through because there is too much pain there.”

For Johnson the YouTube video was her release. But now her family is trying to get her to remove it.

“They don’t want people to know this happened,” she said.

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Johnson is fighting to keep the video up and said she’s using it to help herself cope with what happened 15 years ago.

She states her purpose clearly during the documentary saying, “Putting the word out about what happened to me in hopes to help other people and also in hopes to get justice for myself.”

The battle to display her video is currently her only fight. This week Johnson got another blow. The Tarrant County District Attorney’s Office told her they would be offering her abuser, Earnest Lawson, a plea deal –-probation.

“I feel like I was victimized for the second time,” Johnson said.

CBS 11 News wanted to talk to the DA about the case but was told since it is a pending case they can’t discuss it.

Lawson’s attorney also turned down a request for an interview.

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One Comment

  1. pat arredondo says:

    Good for her do whatever it takes to make yourself feel better.People don’t realize even though it happened 15 yrs ago the pain is still there.And to have had a child no one can imagine the pain.So forget what the family thinks.Do it for your own healing..And as for the cousin i hope he gets all that he deserves.Not probation what is wrong with the system?(another subject)..

  2. Danielle says:

    What a brave woman you are, Ms. Johnson. Your courage, your voice matter to those of us who understand.

    Incest isn’t an “event” – it’s life-altering. Tragically, you must bear the sadness of the losses. Triumphantly, you must find the way to experience the value of both your beautiful soul and voice – despite what has happened. Refuse to carry HIS shame one more step and know that there are millions of women around the world that walk beside you in spirit and in truth… having faced the the greatest challenge of all Survivors in overcoming what has happened…

    “Speak your truth, even if your voice shakes” — Maggie Kuhn

    — With much respect

  3. Danielle says:

    And, thank you, Arezow Doost, for bringing Ms. Johnson’s story out of the darkness of the “forbidden” and into the light of day.

  4. altha says:

    Thank you Ms. Johnson for your story may God up-lift you on your darkest days. Keeping telling your story you are a survivor i pray your cousin get what’s coming to him.

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  6. FedUpTxn says:

    Abused women and children in Texas are no more than property where justice is spelled “JUST US”. Any abused person in this state is not surprised this beast will get probation. Keep talking Ms. Johnson, you deserve to be heard!

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